Tuesday, September 08, 2009

dreams

I had a dream over the weekend and woke up smiling. I dreamt that I knew it was Michael's last day. And we had a pool. And we stayed outside swimming until the wee hours of the morning. Because we could. We had so much fun. And our neighbors were mad.

But we didn't care. Because we were together and laughing. In those last few moments together.

It was one of those dreams that felt real. That I wished was real. And despite my disappointment that it wasn't real, I could hear the echo of Michael's laugh in my mind.
My favorite sound in all the world.


8 comments:

Kim said...

What a beautiful dream! Michael's laughter will always play in your head- it is the best sound in the world! Love you!

Cindy said...

It sounds to me like this dream was a blessing. A vivid memory is one to treasure. I'm thinking about you today (everyday). But especially today. Glad that you had the chance to spend some time with your boy in that way. Whose to say that it wasn't an actual visit?

Tammy On the Go said...

may you have more....

Anonymous said...

There are days that I'd swear my nose was still nuzzled in the crook of his little neck during our "kangaroo-care" in the NICU. The smell of him is incredibly strong and my heart sinks to the pit of my stomach. Over the years I've learned to cherish these moments...moments of unconditional, unreasonable and uncontrollable love.
Tammy said it best...may you have more.

always thinking of you, Belinda

Martha Robbins said...

Those are the best dreams ever! I hope you have a bazillion more!! Love you!! Martha

Elizabeth Dark Wiley said...

that is beautiful.

Stacie said...

So sweet, Jenn. Thank you for sharing. I am sure these moments keep you going. Will continue to pray for you.

Much love,
Stacie Smith

Lynese said...

Just sending you lots of love and support from across the world.
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