I know that today would have been filled with excitement. Michael would have been so excited to see who was in his class. Who his teacher was.
I would have lamented that I couldn't believe that I had a fifth grader. Aren't I too young for that, I would have said. Or time goes by so fast when you have kids. Or look at how big my sweet boy is now. Or any of those other things that moms will say on the first day of school.
But I won't get to say them. I'll remember first days gone by. And carry my sorrow of these first days ahead.
I am just so sad.