Friday, April 09, 2010

a year ago. today.

A year ago. Last night. I was sitting on my bed. Playing UNO with my son.
The phone rang. It was a girl asking to speak to Michael.
I laughed as he hardly got a word in.
I thought about how this was the first. Of many more.

A year ago. This morning. I was running a little late for work.
So I was able to give goodbye smooches to Michael.
I reminded him to wear his Young Actors shirt.
I kissed him goodbye.
I told him I loved him.

For the last time.

A year ago. At 10:15 (or so). I received a phone call.
Michael had passed out. Don't panic, she said.
I ran to my car. I made phone calls.
We waited in the ER hallway. Answering questions. Waiting to see Michael.
To reassure him. To hold his hand.

A year ago. At 11:46 am.
Michael slipped away. To the heavens.
And the world crashed around me. I screamed.

A year ago. At 1:30 pm.
I walked out of the hospital.
Clutching my son's shoes. Because that's all I had of his.

A year agao. Today.
The world lost one of its best.

14 comments:

[gibbons photography.] said...

you are in my thoughts, jenn. all the day long. [sending lots of love to you.]

Mrs. Justice said...

amen.

Elizabeth Dark Wiley said...

You're right, Jenn. You're absolutely right. I love you.

Tammy On the Go said...

beautifully expressed.

Anonymous said...

You are in my thoughts and prayers as well.

Love,
Cynthia

justme said...

Thinking of you all day today. You are eloquent and beautiful. Michael was amazing because he had an amazing mother.

Karen said...

An amazing boy. An amazing mom.

Allison said...

You are a strong and amazing person. You are in my thoughts and prayers today and always.

Kara Doss said...

You are absolutely amazing Jenn! (I hate to be repetitive, but it's the truth!) You are such a strong woman and I look up to you. I love you!!

Anonymous said...

My mom was asking about you today. She wants you to know she still prays for you daily. I told her when I saw you, all I could think was how courageous you are.
Nicole

Stacie said...

Praying for you during this time. Hang in there.

Much love,
Stacie Smith

Tammy On the Go said...

Just thinking about you today...Father's day....

agirlinawhirl said...

You stopped blogging on the anniversary....don't lose your voice. There's lots of us who listen.

Bethany said...

08/18/10
Just thinking about you today and saying a prayer for you and your family. You are special and have an important story to share. . .waiting patiently for your return.