Tuesday, October 06, 2009

ugly

I find it difficult to blog right now.
I am a mix of ugly emotions. Bitter. Angry. Lonely. Sad. Jealous.
I find it difficult to pray.
I am awkward in groups. And in singles.
I'm working through it. Thank you for bearing with me.

11 comments:

Tracy said...

Jen ~

I follow your blog, though you may not have known that...I try to understand what you're going through even though there's no way I can. Today's entry moved me to reply. Everybody feels the way you feel sometimes, without as much reason. Know that it's OK, it's totally human and only fair and no one should expect any less. I admire you for merely breathing and I wish there was something anyone could do to help.

Love,
Tracy

Anonymous said...

Jenn,
Tracy said it best! I myself have felt all of these emotions for very little reason.

You are very precious and God loves you so much. I pray for you always.

Love, Denise (Tyler's mom)

Tammy On the Go said...

thank you for letting us quietly walk beside you.

Karen said...

Thank you for sharing. I, like others, care deeply, but feel completely unqualified to say we can even begin to fathom the depth of your pain.

Anonymous said...

Just know that we're here,

Catherine in Scotland x

Ordinary Mom said...

You don't no me but I have been following your blog for awhile now kinda lurking I guess you could say. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. You have every right to feel how you do. I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through right now, but I can say that you and Michael have touched our lives. I think about your sweet Michael alot. My son is 8 and my whole life. Before I found your blog I didn't pray on a regular basis. After finding your blog I find myself looking at my son and thinking of you and your family. Then I pray for all of you and hope that someday you find comfort and peace. I then pray for my family and just hope that God will let me keep my precious son here with me for a very long time. So Thank you!
God bless! Thanks again for sharing your story!
Andrea in Oklahoma

Martha Robbins said...

Jenn I love you. I don't "bear" you. I cherish you. I pray it gets easier for you.

Melissa said...

Jenn, I can't imagine how tough it is but I think it's very important to be honest with yourself through the grieving process. Your friends will stand by you even in your darkest and ugliest moments so allow yourself to grieve honestly. I admire your courage and think of you often.

Ange said...

We are all here to love and support you, dear friend. I wish there was more I could do, but support and love you, I do. With gusto. Always. xoxo, Angelyn

Cindy said...

Thoughts and prayers from far away. You are loved.

Mom and Daddy said...

We are here. Still loving you and grieving with you and for you. Always in our hearts. Always in our prayers.